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Why does she stay?

Why does she stay? Ne yo has the intellect of a woman. I ask myself every night do I stay. I have been dragged through the mud. At times I held my head high when I should have held it low. The actions don't hurt, but me staying is what hurts that is why I ask the question why does she stay? Things like having a family is one major factor that makes me want to stay but then I realize the idea of a family went out the door when you looked me and the eyes and lied to benifit yourself. Not wanting to go out and starting the whole single life thing all over is pretty scary but you never know if you try, if you don't like him move on. Don't accept things that don't make you a better person. Love is one thing that appears to make me stay. Lol little do I know there is no love there. Love doesn't mean anything when you being hit on and cheated on. The love I feel is nothing compared to what I can give myself, it is ok to love yourself men don't always do it right. Omfort makes me stay I am comfortable with thr person. Well I just broke a crucial rule and that is to never feel to comfortable.

Had a good day..Went to work and it was cool..A little tierd..Tomorrow is turkey day..I am wondering where does the time time go. Maybe it went to the birds. I guess when you stress over nonesense it is hard to see things for what they really are. I told you earlier it is time for me to make the changes because no one isn't going to change for me..Off to the club wish me luck..Please no violence tonight guys..

Have a perfect day..

Speaking of a good morning..Mine is perfect. People always ask why you love Serani so much..I saw to myself he already told you..You can't study people, people are pure evil. Wondering when the time will come when people will take things for what they are. I slept with a dog I must admit but at night it sure gets cold that is another story though. But the reailty of the situation is I aknowledge I dated a dog. Maybe in the future I will date a loyal Dog..Who am I kidding all dogs lay up with any one any where. Maybe I should say I should train my dog a little bit better. For instance never get to comfortable. When that dog is laid up with you make sure you planning your morning. Because I laid up and felt like I was in heaven mean while he was plotting on how he would get his next piece. Realize who you dealing with and ask yourself is that who you want to look like....I never realized that until I began to mess with my child's dad not saying he is bad looking but just know if you know better you would do better. I realized the people he surrounded himself wiyh had that look..Not realizing I once had that look. LoL..Ladies you are who you fuck..Its not a good look to fuck a shabby man you may began to look like a shabby women..Been there an done that..

Day Uno

What a way to be free. Written expression allows me to say things that I couldn't say to others through out the day. My babe woke up happy, and I woke up willing to make a change. I was willing to make a purchase that made me feel better about my situation. Being able to make a purchase towards something helped me focus my attention else where. Her dad almost got me down but I still managed to smile. Admiting to your faults is meaningless when you say anything to.get out of certain situations. Eventually all this bullshit will be tiering, we not making it any where we both are afraid to let the other see the other weak..Things will get better if I trust in god and ask him for strength. Until then I will pray. I will also put certain things out of my mind so things can go by earlier. Like annet said when you expect lies and bullshit you can't get mad because you already know that is what is expected. Goodnight wic in the am, wake me up pleeas wake me up

Years To Come..

Years to come with my daugther in tote..Wearing her big girl clothes, telling me she wants this and telling me she doesn't want. Mean while her mom is working to get her any and everything she can possibly want. It is hard to work for everything but when you see the smile on your daugthers face it means the world to you. Every day is a struggle to make things happen, but in due time the battle between mother and father will end. His job of being a man has been done he has taught his daughter what a man has to do to prove he isn't the one. The struggle mommy goes through allows her to see what it means to deal with a man who can't bone up to his responsiblities. A strong man wouldn't allow a woman to work as hard as he should..Me and my daugther will be strong together, it is ok to be in and out of her life it teachs her that she must understand life goes on wether he is there or not. The pain allows me to love my daugther more.